14-15months.

this shirt is soaking while i type. (fingers crossed, bad idea)

oh, i feel so bad because i didn't post 14 month stats. so i'm just going to do 14 and 15 together. between summer and traveling, the last couple of months seem to be so crazy. we went to mexico with my family and we had a blast. beckett and i bought a ticket to mexico and dan flew standby. beckett was amazing on the flight. he was just like a little adult and never cried one time. he just nursed and then slept almost the entire flight. when he wasn't asleep he was just looking around and playing with the toys i brought him. he ate snacks. i was so worried about him getting sick, i brought all of his food in a suitcase. i was even able to bring organic milk with us for the entire week. it seemed a little extreme and over protective maybe but i'm so glad i did it. we all ended up getting ecoli poisoning upon return, except for beckett. that was what i was worried about and the fact that if he got sick there wasn't anything that could be given to him. so it was all worth it. our room was absolutely gorgeous and right on the beach. it was a perfect location, right by the pool. we had a huge checklist of things to bring and one of them was the monitor. we managed to bring the charger, the video recorder, but not the monitor. at the last minute i switched bags and forgot to grab the monitor. we were so bummed because we wanted him to nap in the room and turn the video on while we were on the beach or at the pool. at first i just sat on the balcony while he napped and watched dan snorkel, boogie board, swim, kayak, etc. but by the third day. we decided to stay close enough to see the door to the room and check on him every ten minutes or so. by the end we had it all figured out. we had such a good time. i definitely realized how things are so much different once you have kids. the minute we walked into our beautiful room, we started re-arranging furniture to make it more kid friendly. there was a ledge off the stairs that we had to cover in pillows. the cleaning lady, i'm sure was wondering why we kept doing this. one day we came in and she had moved everything back. and of course beckett fell off the ledge. i was so mad that she had moved it all back. we just finally quit having her come to clean. the trip was a blast. made us even more excited for our wedding in costa rica. the travel home was not so great. i decided to try standby on the way home. which ended up being a huge mistake. we made it to dallas no problem. we landed at 10:30a.m. and was going to try and catch the next flight to denver. supposedly there was a bomb threat on united and all the flights were re-routed to AA. therefore, we didn't get on. nor did we get on all day. at 8:30p.m. we finally decided to buy a ticket on frontier. we actually got a really good deal on the price and said let's just do it. we then got a hotel for the night in dallas. did i mention that we didn't have our luggage. it was in denver. no clothes, no diapers, no wipes, no hair brush, no toiletries (toothbrush), no baby food, no car to obtain any of this, nothing, nada, zip, zilch. we ordered a pizza to the hotel. the people at the front desk were the most amazing people we had met all day. it restored our faith in people. the lady at the front, gave me three diapers that she had in her car, a comb from the front desk and a toothbrush and toothpaste. you would have thought we died and went to heaven. at midnight we finally got to sleep. the longest day ever and beckett was again, AWESOME. it was like no big deal for him. until, midnight. he woke up screaming at the top of his lungs. i know he was sooo tired. and i felt so terrible for him. i felt like i let him down. it was horrible. the next day we made it back to denver then drove 3 hours to steamboat. it was such a long trip home but never had it felt so good to be back. beckett just made us so proud and we feel so lucky to have such a wonderful little boy! he is the best.

the last month or so he has been transitioning to one nap. although, some days he still needs two. we are still nursing morning and night. i have a feeling this is coming to an end, so i'm enjoying the last bit of it. he has yet to be sick, (knock on wood), and i accredit his health to the nursing.

he is starting to throw tantrums when he doesn't get his way. oh man, and it begins. we just say, "beckett, it's okay, you don't need to scream to get your point across." and "that kind of behavior isn't acceptable." hopefully, someday he will get it. :)

he is definitely understanding things we are asking him to do. every little thing i ask him to do, eventually he will do it. i.e. if i say let's take a bath he walks to the stairs and looks up to the bathroom, if i tell him to brush his teeth, he walks to the bathroom by his room, if i ask if he's hungry and wants to eat, he walks to his high chair. if i ask for a kiss, he will lean over with his mouth wide open. (he loves giving good night kisses to anyone that is around at the time) he is a sponge and is really starting to communicate.

i'm trying to teach him his body parts, he doesn't seem to be cooperating with that.

we have been coloring and trace his legs and hands. he loves that. he also loves to eat the crayons.

foods he has been eating:

blueberry pancakes, gelato, craisins, whole strawberries, blueberries, english muffins, bagels, cream cheese, bowtie pasta with peas, carrots, watermelon, nectarines, french toast, vanilla bean ice cream, pinwheel pasta with cheese and chicken, cheese eggs, greek pineapple yogurt, turkey sandwiches, pbj, loves honey nut cheerios (constantly pointing and asking for them and looking for them in the lazy susan), bran cereal (weird, i know), spaghetti with meat sauce, bananas, he will eat anything. amazing what he can chew with only 4 teeth.

15 month stats.

size 3 diapers
size 12 month clothes, some 18 month, size 4 shoe
height-will post
weight-will post
head circumference-will post
4 teeth. #e (june 28th), #f (june 30th) finally came in

dislikes.

hates getting his diaper changed, getting dressed, and getting out of the tub

favorite song.

twinkle twinkle little star, calliou theme song

words he is saying.

• "fis"-fish
• "quack"-i say, "what's a duck say?"
• "moooo"-i say, "what's a cow say?"
• "this"-this
• "chees"-cheese
• "mama"-mama
• "oooo"-oooo
• "awe"-awe
• "soos"-shoes
• he says a lot of random things but these are the most consistent

things i don't want to forget over the past two months.

• how he pretends to talk on the phone and how he will use anything as a phone, but prefers the real thing
• how he likes to walk blindly, with a towel or something over his head
• how he likes to back up and sit on your lap
• how his face looks when he is trying to do something difficult or requires a lot of strength (it's somewhat of a wince and a growl)
• how he blows his nose with toilet paper
• how he wraps his hands around his head and rubs his hair
• how he likes to pull the boxes of toys out of the storage bench meme and papa made
• how he stands on the train and rocks back and forth
• how he likes to climb anything. the one time i turned around and he was standing on the diaper box
• how he likes to climb the stair gate and turn the light switch on and off (although it scares me that he will lose his grip and fall backwards on the tile)
• how i say, "let's go brush and floss your teeth" and he walks straight to the bathroom
• how we use burts bees orange wow toothpaste and he loves it
• how he loves to spin in circles, he just laughs
• how he changed his laugh to deep sounding laugh (sounds so fake)
• i asked him what him and daddy did and he started throwing his hands in the air and making an explosion sound. when i told dan he said that was crazy because he holds the duck in the air and makes that sort of sound
• how one day he was mimicking "whoa"
• how he can feed himself with a fork and spoon. he loves to dip it and then eat it.
• cleans furniture, floor, clothes, animals, everything with wipes
• how he lays on his belly in the bath tub and just hums
• how he strums the guitars and hums
• how he will randomly laugh at something on the T.v.
• how he puts his face under the water faucet while it's running
• drinks the tub water (i hate that)
• how he knows to shake his head no
• he he has started to shake his head yes (the first time was august 6th. in the tub i asked him if he wanted this glass candle holder he always points to, and he shook his head yes)
• how he just loves to read
• how he loves knocking blocks over
• how he knows how to make the top spin
• how he opens the pop goes the weasel box without turning the handle (although he knows how to do that). he just releases the latch like, "duh, this is a lot easier."
• how he can open and close the windows (one day some kids were playing outside and he was getting ready to go to bed but was opening and closing it and talking to them)
• how he loves stuffed animals
• how he took the keys to the door knob and to pretend he was unlocking it
• how he loves to open the lotion bottle
• how he pulled out the bottom tray on the stove and sat in one night
• on july 26th, he actually handed me his water bottle and asked for more water by pointing to the water dispenser in the fridge. i filled it up, handed it back to him and he took it, smiled, and walked away.
• how he kicks the basketball
• how he wrestles with his sock monkey. he just talks to it and throws it on the ground and rolls around with it.
• how he loves to play in his room
• how he loves to roll around on blankets and pillows
• how we started coloring
• how all of a sudden his feet touch the ground when he sits on the train
• how he knows how to get off the couch
• how i was testing his walking downstairs skills and he did a flip and i caught him in the air. he had no idea what happened and was like "what?" not quite there yet
• how we taught him how to throw his diaper away and decided that wasn't a good idea because he was throwing everything away
• how he insists on pushing the cart at the grocery store
• how he says "ooo" and "awe"
• how he swings this long straight tent rod around like a sword (all boy)

Beckett, everyday i look at you and am amazed. you are constantly learning something new. you make me laugh every single day, if not every single minute your awake. while your asleep, i look at you and smile. i have to say that the best thing that ever happened to me was your dad, because it gave us, you. thank you for being the little man that you are. we couldn't have wished for a better son. i love you to the moon and back and will never stop telling you.

year in the life.

year in the life.

wedding reception.

13 months.

beckett is 13 months. i think we are officially calling him a toddler. it just seems weird to refer to him as a "baby." he is on the move and cracks us up everyday. he went from barely walking to almost running. he is so much fun. we feel so blessed to have such a perfect little one. he is the light of our lives and we are just excited about starting this second year with him. he is truly the best thing that has ever happened to us.

after his one year checkup, we were told to see the nutritionist in denver. so this past month uncle zac and we went for his appointment. they put him on the "world curve" and after a 3 day log of his daily food intake and a forty minute appointment, they said he was fine. we were so happy to hear this. they said he was getting the calories he needed and he just is a thin guy. it's probably a good possibility he will be a "late bloomer." i'm trying to not worry anymore, this made me feel so much better, although with how active he is now, he is really not gaining! he does seem to be eating more. which i love. i absolutely love watching him eat and seem to enjoy his food. he is funny. one day he will seem like he loves something and will eat a ton of it and then the next time i prepare the same thing he won't want anything to do with it. let's just say he likes a variety. this past month he has just ate oranges and PB&J like they are going out of style. he just loves them.

this month we had our first major accident. after his bath one night, we walked down to the living room to get his PJ's on and as usual, he was running around naked like a wild man. he tripped over the towel and BAM hit his upper lip on the ottoman. at first, i held him thinking he just bumped his lip. he was crying and i was trying to console him. i then felt something dripping on my shoulder and i looked down to the sight of blood. my stomach dropped. i couldn't believe how bad it was bleeding. it was literally dripping. i felt so horrible that this happened. i tried to look and see where the blood was coming from but he wouldn't let me touch it. i'm sure it was so painful. i felt so helpless. i was trying to dab the blood and put pressure on it, he wasn't having that either. i'm sure he didn't know what was going on, between tasting/seeing blood, and his lip swelling. he kept taking his tongue over the swelling like he was trying to feel it. i felt sooo horrible. he cried for a bit and then he stopped and it finally stopped bleeding. he was over it pretty quick. me on the other hand...not so much. ;)

every night i sit him on the bathroom counter to brush and floss his teeth. he loves it. we started using children's toothpaste and of course that has been a huge hit. he likes to hold the sonicare while it vibrates. i will brush and floss in the meantime and then after we are finished, he puts the electric base in his mouth and feels the vibration. he just smiles.

one sunday fun day, the three of us went down town to stroll around and to split an ice cream cone. oh man, he loved that. we got cookies and cream. he would just take a bite and walk around and then come back and take a bite and then walk around. so proud of himself walking and all. it was really windy that day and we were all ducking our heads with each sand filled gust and he would forcefully shake his head back and forth with his tongue hanging out. dan and i thought, this was probably the first time he had ever felt wind like that. so cool. he loved it.

we have been trying to be outside as much as possible. he just loves being outside.

we are headed to mexico, beckett's first passport stamp, as will it be daddy's.

his schedule has pretty much stayed the same from 12 months.

new foods he has eaten:

spaghetti, cantaloupe, pineapple, cookies and cream ice cream, bunny grahams, greek yogurt, tried a bratwurst per daddy's request (he didn't really like it)

13 month stats.

size 3 diapers
size 6-12 month clothes, size 3 shoe
height-
weight-approx. 16lbs.
head circumference-
still only 2 teeth, keeps trying to cut upper front (#e,f) they'll bulge and then not)

things i don't want to forget.

• first step on may 10th and then 5 steps on may 11th
• i gave him his first fluoride tx on may 19th
• the beginning of the month he was teething and waking at 5a every now and then to nurse than back to sleep
• we lowered his mattress to the lowest setting. we were scared he was going to crawl out and fall
• how he loves flipping things over on the ground, i.e. pillows and puzzles
• around may 21st just starting cruising everywhere, no longer crawling
• throwing his diapers in the trash, and now throwing everything in the trash, everything.
• how he loves playing with the broom
• how he is into throwing everything just to see how far he can throw different things
• how when he first started walking he would hold his hands high in the air and have his mouth wide open as he would walk
• how he likes to put things on his train and push it around
• how he wrestles with his little blow up, despicable me mignon
• how he automatically waves bye bye when we are saying good night to daddy or when we are leaving
• how he loves to wash his hands
• how excited he gets when we see a dog
• how he loves to push the shopping cart at the grocery store and not just ours (any)

i love you beckett, to the moon and back!

a year in the life.

12 months.

beckett is one year old. i just can't believe it has been a year. i'm officially one of those parents that says "where does the time go?" and then i have a vision of him graduating high school. oh man, i don't even want to think about that. i just want to enjoy all of this time together! i think we can say he is a toddler. it's so weird that i'm feeling like my little baby boy isn't a baby anymore! he is actually a little boy.

so this last month seems like we were busy. we went to his eleven month check up and the dr said she wanted to send us to a nutritionist in denver for failure to thrive. i just bawled in the office thinking why won't he just gain a pound. what am i doing wrong? am i missing something? so when we got home i called the dr in denver and they said it was going to take six weeks to get in. i'm thinking, you tell me my kid is failing to thrive and then send me to someone i have to wait six weeks to get any more advice. so i call his pediatrician and she said it would be fine to wait, she isn't too worried, but just wants to see if there is something she is missing. so we are keeping the appointment on May 24th. i will be sure to let everyone know how it goes. over the past month. he has been eating really good and actually gained almost a pound at his 12 month checkup, when in the past he had barely been gaining half a pound a month. his dr seemed excited about this but still wants us to see the nutritionist. it will be interesting to see what the nutritionist says.

at the end of april, we headed back to tulsa for a wedding in which i was an attendant. on the 27th of april, we drove to denver and stayed the night with my oma the night before the flight. beckett was so overtired and had a really hard time sleeping that night. we pulled him into bed with the two of us and he was just all over the place. we all had a rough night. the next morning we got up and got ready to catch his first flight. considering he didn't get a lot of sleep, he did awesome. then only bad thing that happened the whole day was TSA dropped my computer. i'm still working on getting reimbursed for the $1000.00 worth of damage. never fails. we had such a good time in tulsa, always just running and enjoying family and friends. thursday night we went to dinner with the family, i met one of my closest friend's, valerie, for about a 2.5 hours of much needed girl time, friday i got my hair done and ran all around town and rehearsal dinner (in which we missed the rehearsal completely), oops. saturday was the wedding, i got to the club around 1, to watch the bride get ready and for me to get ready. dan and my grandma brought beckett up to the club around 5:30 to see if he would nurse, NO. he wasn't even interested. so my grandma took him back home. i worried how well he would go to bed without eating, because i knew he wouldn't eat for my grandma. of course he didn't, but he seemed to sleep just fine. i felt so bad for not being there for him but they did great! sunday, we threw him a party. beckett hated his cake, he wanted nothing to do with it. he just cried and cried. we had a lot of good friends and family show up to celebrate. it was so cute. my mom, dad, grandma, brother, sister and jay helped us out to no end with everything we needed for the party. there wouldn't have been a party without them. thank you guys. my parents are just the best parents a kid could ask for. they are such selfless people and give and give and give. i love them. thank you so much. it was such a bummer because my mom had rented a jupiter jump and snow cone machine for the kids and every day we were in tulsa the weather was extremely nice, except for sunday. RAINY and COLD. two things you don't want with a jupiter jump and snow cone machine. boo. i will post some pictures of the party soon. monday, we flew home. we were so tired from the eventful fun weekend but were ready to get home. beckett was so awesome. traveling with him was so easy. once we got on the plane, we tried to ask a man sitting next to us if he would switch with uncle zac and he rudely said "i will not switch for a window seat." i immediately gave beckett permission to cry and be annoying. ha. but of course he wasn't. he pulled at the zipper of my jacket, nursed and went to sleep! dang. i thought, oh ok, this guy must need to get up often on an hour flight. NOPE not one time. he just played solitaire on his phone. guess you can't do that in a window seat. people can be so self-indulged. uggh.

we got back on our regular schedule and friday was beckett's actual birthday. i made him another little cake thinking he would be into it since it was pretty low key. no. again, he wanted nothing to do with it. well, i'm sure he will next year!

i feel like i say it all the time but he is constantly doing something new! it seems like everyday. he has changed so much this past month. he is just so funny. so many things are coming to an end and it makes me so sad but so excited for him getting bigger. i put away all of his baby toys, bottles, pacifiers, and sterilizer away. i cleaned the breast pump, and packed it up. we haven't used any of it in a while now. so i figured it is time. it was so bittersweet. he is only nursing twice a day, morning and night. although we aren't trying to count it as actual nutrition, just liquids. he won't take a bottle anymore, he just drinks out of a cup with a straw. such a big boy. we tried cow's milk on his birthday. he seems to like it. we have started flossing his two teeth regularly, start them young. he loves the taste of the floss and he loves his toothbrush. he cracks me up, once he gets down from his high chair, he will walk all around the table taking bites on each round, mumbling and humming in between. we are always able to get more food in him this way. he absolutely loves to wrestle, climb little obstacles, sing, and try and scare you. for his birthday we bought him a tube that he can crawl through has a tent attached at both ends, he enjoys that. we also opened him a savings account from a few checks he got as gifts and some money we added. we got a long way to go, if we want to pay for what they estimate his college will cost in 2028, $250,00.00. he might be on his own for most of that. unless he gets scholarships. we are starting. but he can do what he wants. he might not even want to go, we will see!

(actual birthday)

(he didn't want to give up the lollipop, like we would let him eat this whole thing. ha.)

new foods he has tried....

macaroni and cheese, fig newtons, goldfish, loves loves pineapple, cow's milk on his first birthday, strawberries, loves the nut covered raisins out of our cereal, i feel like he will try anything we are eating. he seems to be over the baby food stage. he wants the real stuff.

schedule.

i feel like the nursing is coming to an end. since he has turned one, he is only nursing twice a day. in the morning and right before bed. a typical day consists of, (not every day is the exact same, but it's safe to say his bedtime routine is the most important to us):

8a.m.-wakes, nurses (he seems to be needing this one less, sometimes only one side), and then will eat breakfast, plays and snacks here and there, while drinking some cow's milk and water

10:30a.m.-1st nap

12:00p.m.-wakes, plays eats lunch, with whole milk, play, play, play

2:30 or 3p.m.-2nd nap

4p.m.-wakes, snacks or dinner (depending upon how much lunch he had and how hungry he is), milk, play

5:30-bath

6:30-dinner if he snacked earlier or snack if he ate dinner, with milk. (most times he will eat off of our plates), more play time

7-7:30p.m.-wind down time in his room, nurse

8p.m.-out like a light

one year stats.
size 3 diapers
size 6-12 month clothes, size 3 shoe
height- 28.5 inches: 11%
weight-15lbs, 12oz: <1% (he actually bumped up a notch)
head circumference-18inches: 30%
has #o,p teeth (looks like #e,f are on their way)

things i don't want to forget....

• how he stood up all by himself and walked behind his train on april 14th
• how he was standing a really long time on april 8th
• how he got out of his sleep blanket on april 9th
• how he took his first one step on may 3rd
• how he loves to touch my earrings
• how he loves trying to do a somersault
• how he likes to touch my toenail polish
• how he stood under the glass table top and mimicked my cleaning it
• how he has been pointing to things
• how he just acts like he is carrying a conversation with me
• how on his first flight he was so amazing, touched everything, and never cried
• how on the flight home he nursed and fell right to sleep
• how he loves to pull out wipes and open and close the container
• how he is trying to put lids on things correctly
• how dan said one night he would go up one stair and then scoot down to be sure he could get down and then go up two and scoot down and so forth
• how he has started to want privacy while doing the #2
• how he sits on his knees and dances
• how he just sits in a real deep squat with his bottom just above the floor
• how any time he belches or passes gas, he laughs
• how he loves to give high 5's
• how he will just set on his head like he is going to do a headstand with no hands on the floor, just pointing and waving
• how he mimicked me one day opening his mouth and eyes real wide and then laughing
• how he holds his pacifier in his mouth but tilts it into a "u" shape
• he will just lay his head down in the middle of playing and "rest" for about, 2 seconds and then go right back at it
• how he likes to eat on the move, he will walk around/under the table over and over, and in between takes bites (although, for the most part, we like him to be in his chair, sometimes we are able to get a few extra bites in him and we figure hey whatever helps)
• how i can tell he is trying to sing. it sounds so different than his speaking voice. it is real soft and drawn out like he is trying to sound like the music
• how he still loves to read all the time and how he likes to tell the story, he also turns the book right side up
• how one night before bath time, he was trying to pull his shirt straight out to see the little monkey on it. he kept losing his balance but would stand back up and pull it out to see it again

one year ago we were more than blessed to have been given you and i have loved every minute of being your mother. you have made motherhood more than i could have ever imagined. i'm so lucky to have you as my son. thank you for being so amazing. happy one year birthday, may you have many, many, many more to come. i love you to the moon and back.