One Month.

So, this last month has been more than i can ever imagine and no words could ever describe. My first mother's day; absolutely amazing and way more than i could have ever expected. After the delivery, we got settled in at home with plenty of help from the families. My family was here and then dan's mom and sister visited. it was so nice to have all the helping hands. For the past week, we have been on our own and starting to get into a routine. We are actually able to clean, do laundry and still able to enjoy lil' Beckett! We have started video and photo records!!! It begins. He is the coolest thing ever and now, i can't even imagine my life without him!! He is so perfect, i couldn't ask for a better son. He rarely cries and if he does it's usually for food and very short-lived. We don't have a set schedule for feedings but it seems to be pretty routine. While giving us about a four-five hour window at night...thank you...i love you my sweet son! We have been to the skate park several times to watch dad. He didn't seem too impressed, he slept the whole time. Dad says it's because his stroller has been covered and he can't see...but we all know the truth. ha. We go on walks and out for dinner. He just relaxes and is completely unaware of any ruckus around him! A couple of weeks ago at night, he woke for a feeding and afterwards, i was changing his diaper and as soon as i pulled the dirty one out from under him, he exploded #2 all over the changing pad (thankfully, i had put down on top of the sheets). It scared me because it was so loud and i jumped backwards. That in turn, scared dan, to wake up and jump out of bed thinking beckett had fallen off the bed. Dan tweaked his neck and it was sore for the next few days. It was sort of a running joke. That's how you know you are getting older!

What we are reading now:

-"Love You Forever," "Little Pea," "Guess How Much I Love You," "I Love You, Little One," "Snuggle Puppy, a little love song," "Look at the Animals!"

Things that i don't want to forget about this past month:

-the way i felt when i first saw him/held him, finally meeting him and knowing he was

ours for life and understanding the meaning of "unconditional love"/"love at first sight"

-the way i felt when we drove home from the hospital, everything felt so new (new car, new town, new house, new life-nothing was the same nor would be!!!)

-how his sweet little eyes look at me while i'm nursing....it's like he knows i'm his food source and is so grateful

-how peaceful he looks when he sleeps (every now and then, i have to check and see if he is

breathing)

-how he thrashes around like a shark when he wants his pacifier

-how he opens and closes his mouth like a little bird when he is ready to eat

-how it breaks my heart when he cries

-how he wailed at his first bath but has loved them ever since

-how the soles of his feet press together when he is lying on his back with his arms straight above his head

-how his toes curl around my thumb when i press on his foot to kiss it

-how he is always trying to scratch his face if we don't keep little gloves on him

-how he will put a death grip on your finger and not let go

-how fast his fingernails grow...i clip them ever other day

-how he melted my heart when he first smiled at me, at that moment i knew i always wanted to see him smiling and at the end of the day that is the only thing that is important

-understanding it's the small things that make a parent proud, like a really big burp or a nicely filled diaper

-how he squeaks his pacifier like maggie simpson

-how he lays on my chest and looks up at me and slowly blinks his eyes as i talk or read to him

-his 2 inch alfalfa hair on the very crown of his head

-how he has been holding his head up since day one (he's so strong)

-his grunts and moans

-the "ymm" sound he makes as he swallows while eating with his eyes rolling back into his head

-how often he has the hiccups (like when he was in the womb)

-how his hair sticks out like a duck tail after drying it or he has been laying on it

-how he continuously makes a serious face by furrowing his eyebrows

-his smell

-how he feels in my arms

I love you little man, you are what i always wanted but wasn't sure would ever get.... i'm looking forward to spending life with you!